Sis left for Germany today… Was already missing her yesterday even though we were together. Will miss her whenever I go to work coz she drops me on her way to work too. At night I won’t be coming to her room and wake her up and chat with her about how our respective day at work went by… Sis I love you so much… I realize how it feels whenever I used to leave for India for months and you would come back with Mom and Dad at home, feeling strange that you won’t see me for a long time… There is definitely a hollow space inside the house, specially in the heart. Being there and seeing each other matters a lot…

I will stop feeling sorry for myself. I know she will have a great time there. She definitely deserves it! And I pray that things work out really fine in the new environment she will be. I love you Sis and will miss you a lot.

Didn’t go to work on Friday coz of my health. When we went to the doc, he heard me cough and said it was a bad one. Was feeling ok but at work everyone told me I looked sick. Was covered from head to toe!!! Had a muffler, coat and on top of that a woolen shawl. Felt sick by evening and told my superiors I might not be coming the next day if things don’t get better. One of them (seeing my state) asked me if I wanted to take leave but told him it was alright, I could bear it. But didn’t go the next day. Wanted to be with Sis. And I don’t regret it a single bit.

Right now I feel like going to work even though it’s Sunday! Not that am a workaholic but because I don’t like being with that feeling. I don’t like it when I can’t see the person I love so much… Am just gulping down that lump in my throat. Naaah time will fly by fast and all that counts is her happiness. And am sure she will be thrilled and have a fantastic time!

Will go to bed in a few mins. Need to catch up. When I wake up I will feel miserable again and will start counting the hours when I will be able to hear her voice again!!! Just a few hours of patience… Have to study also. I need to keep certain things in my head and organize myself better. Didn’t get the time to do so. I can’t wake up early during the week coz I feel sleepy in the afternoon. And I hate it whenever I start something and can’t finish it in one go. That leaves me frustrated for the rest of the day. Have a holiday tomorrow so hopefully will be able to do it.

That’s it for now. Am not chirpy right now so can’t find other situations to write about. Will do so later when my mood is better.